James' mother suffers from vascular dementia and she is very confused about the recent events and needs some help with the everyday cares: paying bills, making decisions, meals, medication, etc. She is not willing to go to a facility that would help her so James and his sister are trying to fill in the void.
These events (which by-the-way have been on-going for many years) have given me sincere and earnest reflection regarding my own mortality and aging. I turned 60 years old in July, along with my loving husband, and I know some day we will be facing life-changing decisions regarding our well-being. Hear my prayer, O Lord, that I will remain close to YOU and give my life to YOU each day. May I grow old in YOUR love and grace.
Here is James' reflection on turning a decade older:
I’m feeling my age a bit. My metabolism has slowed. My joints are stiffening, despite regular application of miracle drugs. My eyesight is dimming, literally. I care, but I don’t fret.
I have been writing quite a bit lately, about friends, the land and life on it. It has become a little like sitting in the back of a motor boat, watching yourself ski. I notice at first I am moving back and forth across the wake of the boat, then as I tire, getting aligned with it so that the swells are flattened and the pull of the rope requires less effort to resist. I used to relish “jumping the wake” and getting out where the force of the ropes pulling perpendicular to my path would send me soaring almost ahead of the boat itself. I never was a great water skier, I never mastered the slalom, or anything else in my life for that matter, but it is a certainty that I did enjoy most of it.
What I like to imagine now is a period in life when I have reduced my wants to the point where I require little force to be exerted to meet my needs. I don’t mean “going to seed”. For what I long is time to reflect and describe, through word and drawn pictures, what of this life is available to cherish and too valuable to lose. That too is work, and I hear its call.
Watching sunsets with your life partner does that to you.
James





















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